Like You Don't Even Know

according to facebook i have literally nothing to go to until 2013

do you want to know something really pathetic, tumblr

i was so anxiety-sick that i was like, okay, just go puke, you’ll feel better afterwards

so i went to the bathroom but i could not even puke, i was sitting there gagging but noooothing was haaaaappening

so i started crying with my head in the toilet because you can’t even do something that drunk idiots and children and drunk children can do, you can’t even puke when you’re fucking sick, is there anything that you don’t fail at god you are the worst at everything how do you even exist

i didn’t want to post this because i want everybody to think i am really cool and not pathetic and stuff but ugh i don’t even care anymore

i just puked a combination of black coffee and berocca

tasted pretty much the same coming up as it did going down

more stomach acidy though

ugh track the gerard way tag and you’re gonna find a lot of freaky-ass mikey/gerard incest ships

and man i was like UGH FUCKIN TWINCEST MAN then i realised it wasn’t twincest so i was like what’s the word for like brother incest and then i said ‘brincest’ in my head like twenty times before i realised that that’s stupid and there doesn’t really need to be a special word because the br in brincest is already implied

so it’s like

redundant

Except make lists of things you should be doing.

oh god the trufax is so tru and faxual it hurts me

if there was some kind of Making Lists Instead of Doing Anything competition i would win at that

but tbh i’d probably just put ‘enter list competition’ on the list and then lie on the couch like a slug

herp derp

i’ve filled up a whole notebook page with my to-do list, two columns, and things just keep being added to it

like mostly it’s just stupid little things, like wash hair, switch out old loofah, fill ice trays, text nippy

i just cannot

bring

myself

to

do

a

single

thing

‘hey let’s drink until we can’t feel feelings anymore’

is a fucking stupid idea

because while i can confirm that i did no longer feel feelings

this morning my feelings are that i’m going to fucking vomit